Benjamin

                   Beloved  Son

Withhold not they tender mercies from me, O Lord: let they loving kindness and thy truth continually preserve me.

                                              Psalm 40:11

What greater thing is there for human souls than to feel they are joined for life~~to be with each other in silent unspeakable memories.

                              George Eliot

No eye has seen, nor ear heard, nor the heart of man concieved, what God has prepared for those who love Him.

                                   1Corinthians 2:9

Ben,

The music on this page makes me think of the day that you were born. Oh how I dreamed for a boy the whole time I carried you. Then when you graced us with your presence, you were beautiful. You were the baby I had dreamed of for so long. Our little man. You gave me so much happiness while you were here. I miss you so much. I wish I had the ability to live those years with you over again. I carry you in a special place inside my heart. You will forever be a part of me.

I love you...........mom

In a quiet cemetery, Where the gentle breezes blow, Lies my son I love so dearly; He died a while ago. His resting place I visit, Placing flowers there with care, But no one knows my heartache, When I turn to leave them there.

Though his smile is gone - and his hands I cannot touch, Still I have so many memories Of the son I loved so much.

His memory is my keepsake, With which I will never part. God has him in His keeping; I have him in my heart.

~Author Unknown~

Thru the wind I can feel your strength. Thru the rain I can feel your tears. Thru the storm I can feel your gentleness.....

With every breath I take, I think of you, With every thought, I long for you.

                     I miss you Ben

                               mom

Just for today I will try to live through the next 24 hours and not expect to get over my son's death, but instead learn to live with it just one day at a time. I will never get over my loss, only through it.     Just for today I will remember my son's life, not his death, and bask in the comfort of all those treasured days and moments we shared.     Just for today I will forgive all the family and friends who didn't help or comfort me the way I needed them to. They truly did not know how.     Just for today I will smile no matter how much I hurt on the inside, so that my heart will soften and I will continue to heal.     Just for today I will reach out to comfort a relative or friend of my child, for they are hurting too, and perhaps we can comfort each other.     Just for today I will free myself from my self-induced burden of guilt, for deep in my heart I know if there was anything in this world I could have done to save my son from death, I would have done it.     Just for today I will honor my son's memory by doing something with another child because I know that would have made my son proud of his Mom.   Just for today I will offer my hand in friendship to another bereaved parent, for I do know how they feel.   Just for today when my heart feels like breaking, I will stop and remember that grief is the price we pay for loving, and the only reason I hurt is because I had the privilege of loving so much. Just for today I will allow myself to be happy, for I know that I am not deserting my child by living on. My son wants me to be happy.   Just for today I will accept that I did not die when my child did, my life did go on, and I am the only one who can make that life worthwhile once more.